The Myth of the Energy Blockage...Don't Be Silly, You're Being Reborn

Many times, a client reaches out for a reading because they have come to understand that they're stuck.

Whether they've hit a dead end with a job, a relationship, finances, inner work, whatever it is-- the perception is that there is an energy grinding to a halt and we now need help to pick up and change something.

Something that I find fascinating about this is a reflection I've found within myself, and also through observing hundreds of people's processes over the years.

For me, something I've learned is that we don't always recognize growth, shadow, and power at first.

And I'm not talking about shadow in terms of "evil" (I really don't give anything that kind of power), and I don't consider power to be something you hold over someone's head-- power in these terms is a gift from Creator, a responsibility to carry, something beautiful that you are here to share to help others.

I am however talking about how many times we think that growth is something that you can track on paper like grades in college, we think that shadow is something bad or shameful, and we think that power is something that can only be abused.

And the biggest myth of all is that we all somehow ended up believing in what a lot of us call an Energy Blockage.

Once I worked this one out for myself I looked back and couldn't believe how many people had firmly instilled this teaching in me-- when in actuality, there was no reason to try to smudge a blockage away, no need to try to purge it out in ceremony....what if I just met up with myself authentically, and came to realize that my power was calling me?

And what if your power is calling you, too?

So, why don't we recognize this stuff?

Because it can feel ridiculously uncomfortable when we haven't caught up with or met that part of ourselves yet-- it feels foreign, it feels frightening, it feels coarse or biting or we flinch when it makes its way to us.

At first, growth, shadow, and power can feel like an attack or accusation, fear, resentment, the desire to run away and hide, or the desire to turn inwards and punish oneself.

The shadow is fun to figure out because it will figuratively "cast a shadow" on our perception, reducing our ability to see our lives for how they are, and causing us to be reactive towards everyday events in ways that reflect that shadow/wounding.

And funny enough, calling any energy a blockage is a reflection of our shadows. Which is weird because based on observation, most of us just walk around telling eachother we're doing shadow work but the biggest one we agree to not work on is the idea of a blockage and our refusal to see it any other way.

I'm here to change that for you-- and to help you pick back up some more of your power and put it where it belongs-- inside of you.

I want you to know that this reaction to growth is not only not unusual, but it's actually very foundational to discovering our inner shadows, how we perceive the world, and coming to understand ourselves through observation.

But to call these things a blockage is just us pointing to our power and saying, I don't like that and I don't want it.

Once we notice a pattern, or a rhythm to shadow work, something that we will come to see is that....

The automatic flinch or reaction that we each make to our roadblocks, the crestfallen feeling we may have after realizing we're once again stuck, the tendency to want to drop and ignore our problems....

We realize over time that it was actually just our way of protecting ourselves from growth in our desire to stay comfortable.

Because comfort is comfort, even if it isn't beneficial.

Comfort is still comfort even if it hurts, even if the patterns aren't working in a nice way-- it's easier to stay with a pattern we know because at least we know what to expect from it.

It's predictable.

Comfort is comfort until something challenges it-- which means that if our shadow lays in a fear of feeling stagnant, or blocked, aka we are afraid of losing our power, of course we are going to panic and react with, omg I'm stuck!

But there's a trick to it-- once we recognize this pattern we'll come to find over time that at the exact moment we feel like the walls are closing in on us, that is exactly the moment that we are the closest to taking back another piece of our power, and that there was never any power in trying to push away discomfort.

Being comfortable, oh how our unconscious selves love to grip tightly to this idea. Yes, it is so worth being comfortable that we will go great lengths to protect it.

Even when it means that we are so close to taking back another chunk of our power-- which we know will feel so good-- if we haven't used that power in a long time, even if it's ours, it's going to feel foreign, it's going to feel different and uncomfortable.

Because what is the #1 thing that humans fear the most?

Ourselves.

Our own power.

Standing up for ourselves, speaking up for what we believe in, taking ownership for all of our traits and doing good things with them.

It can be downright terrifying when we've lived a half-life of just coasting by doing what everyone else tells us to do. Easy, even if it has suffering in it. It's comfortable, so why change....

So next time we've have hit a wall with our lives...

When we've realized the pattern we fall into every time we are confronted with a challenge-- is it despair, anger, anxiety, wanting to hide, lashing out, numbing ourselves? Is it a blockage that's outside of us, or are we standing in the way of ourselves?

Know that in that exact moment that the shadow rears its head to come crashing down, the moment it wants us to crumble and turn away--

This is our opportunity to see it as our own very real reaction to our own power-- the shadow represents what we really think of the world, deep down.

This is our calling to reach out to ourselves, put our hands on our hearts, and say,

I love you, and it's okay.

You can walk with me over this mountain, and we'll go together to meet our power.

I'll show you by example that it's okay to be afraid, and you can also be brave at the same time.

And I'll invite you back into the wholeness of what it means to live here, and that once you feel welcomed here, once you have time and space to express yourself, we'll realize that this whole thing was just about taking me along the spiral to what I called "blockage" every time, until I realized where my power was hiding in my shadow, and then I remembered it, and embraced it, and then I never felt stuck like that again....

So....

With that being said.

"Where there is power there is often fear.

And where there is fear there is power."

I find this quote a useful example for the point where we are here to begin to meet our power, before we've recognized a lot of patterns. I do feel that at some point, this quote's message melts away somewhat-- because I do not personally feel that anyone should naturally feel afraid of power. Nor does power actually bring in fear (but in a society that neglects our very innate spiritual callings...that's what it does cultivate).

And, again....to me, power is using our gifts for good. Once we embrace and collect those bits of our power we had misinterpreted in the past, once we embrace the discomfort of being reborn into our gifts and strengths, once we let ourselves feel all of the uncomfortable, sometimes weird and coarse things along the way....

Each time it gets easier.

Every time it makes more and more sense.

Every time, you learn something about yourself.

Thank you.

I love you.

Lak'weh Anastasia